Going into the new year (2023) with a new diagnosis and a new life!
Not gonna lie, I’m glad to see 2022 go. Nothing horrible happened in 2022 but it also was just not my year. I definitely had been dealing with depression that has lingered way past post partum. I also finally got diagnosed with ADHD which has wreaked havoc on my life and just got worse after becoming a mom.
So many things were clearer once I started diving into all the symptoms I’ve had my whole life. I was always one of those kids that had a constant disorganized room. Like literally I was known in my family for it. It was something that never ever got better even after becoming an adult. I literally have a disability with organizing. It absolutely overwhelms me and my executive functioning goes out the window when I see a pile of stuff I have to somehow figure out how to put away.
I also had a tremendous ability to hyper focus, mostly on the wrong things. That’s why it’s been difficult to get a correct diagnosis because ADHD can present very differently in women. The “hyper” part of my hyperactivity was hyper focusing on stuff that was not a priority. I could start trying to organize and get totally lost in reorganizing like just my Disney pins instead of the whole room.
I have time blindness which makes it difficult for me to stay on track or schedule. I can work on my jewelry for hours and hours but not like leave to go get groceries or spend time with family because I just can’t put things down when I’m hyper focusing. In school I did well because I would hyper focus really well the night before something was done while my other friends were able to get their stuff done on time with plenty of enough time to sleep.
Working in TV and especially while working on set was perfect for my ADHD. I was able to juggle all the stuff that was thrown at me because of how fast my mind would run and I had so many late nights writing interview questions or finishing string outs to make my deadline. Sometimes I felt like if I didn’t pull an all nighter my work wouldn’t be good. I didn’t realize this wasn’t really normal.
I finally found the most amazing doctor who is helping me with all of this and it’s slowly getting better, even though I did start organizing my place and here I am ending up posting a post haha. But my biggest resolution for 2023 is to get a hold of this. It’s been very difficult and tough. If you haven’t seen me much on here it’s because I’ve just been absolutely overwhelmed with life. If you also
have ADHD I’d love to talk “shop” haha and see how you’ve been dealing with it. Here’s to the new year and to finally thriving instead of surviving. ✨