We’re Having A Baby!

Ahh! I can’t believe we’re having a baby! I don’t even know where to start because I feel like my mind has been racing since we found out and every day it’s like I realize, “Wait a minute, I’m going to have a baby! This is insane!”

I know having a baby isn’t a new concept haha, but being a mom is something I felt I always wanted but never knew when it was going to happen.

A Little Background…

Jared and I have been together for a long, long time, haha. We’re definitely late bloomers and it even took us a long time to get married! Many of my 20s and 30s were spent traveling the world for work as a freelance TV Producer. Being a freelance TV Producer, you never know where your next job is going to come from so I just took every job that was blessed to be given to me! I had been able to meet so many amazing people, and celebrities, and I even got to literally travel the world during a show about eating around the world. Though I loved every minute of this jet set life, it was taking a bit of a toll on me. I was never home, I was tired all the time, I was stressed out, I was gaining a lot of weight, I barely had any friends outside of work and I barely saw my family, especially the love of my life. I knew deep down I was living a life led by fear. After going to see my first therapist, I realized, I was afraid that if I said no to these kinds of jobs I would be out of work. Through counseling, and my sweet husband’s support, I realized that I was more than my work and that I was strong enough as a producer to be able to take jobs that kept me home, where I could have a more balanced life, because my life was anything but balanced. I finally married the love of my life, I started working on myself and I was able to find amazing jobs that gave me a great life balance. We adopted the cutest dog ever, I grew my Instagram and also went on a lot of trips to Disneyland, haha!

Fast Forward to Us Finding Out We Are Expecting…

To be honest, time just felt like it was passing by so fast, the years kept coming and all of a sudden I was a certain age (I know it’s silly, but I’m still kind of sensitive about divulging my age as a lady haha, but if you really want to know, just go ahead and ask haha). I will say I am older than 35 and if you know, or don’t know (I really didn’t know!), that after hitting 35 it becomes harder to get pregnant and stay pregnant. I honestly had no idea!!! If I had known that, I would have tried to have kids years earlier, but I just kept working and working and working! The modern life, I tell you! So we hit a certain age and my husband and I were like, “Well we should start trying.” We probably had been casually trying (I say casually because I wasn’t really keeping track of my cycle) for about 3-5 months and I found out I was pregnant on October 12th, about a month after I got back from my Disneyworld trip with my Dreamy Girl Gang! That means, my husband and I really missed each other during that trip and we made up for it when I got back haha! A few weeks after coming back from Disneyworld I was feeling exhausted, like an exhaustion I had never felt before. Even going up the stairs made me tired and I was thinking, jeeze I need to work out! Also, my breasts were killing me (sorry for the TMI lady talk to any boys reading haha). My boobs had never hurt this much before and I wasn’t getting my period so I had a hunch something was up. Sure enough, I took a pregnancy test at like 7am on Saturday and gave my husband the craziest news to wake up to haha.

A High Risk Pregnancy?

Because of my age and weight, I was automatically classified as a high risk pregnancy and a pregnancy of advanced mature age, so fun! It’s my first kid and already I felt like there were so many things to be scared about. I was terrified honestly, we both were, and we still are sometimes. Also because of my age I had decided to do every screening I was offered. After my genetics screening I found out I was a carrier for Spinal Muscular Atrophy. It’s a debilitating disorder where in it’s most common form my baby probably wouldn’t live past 2 years old. There have been breakthroughs in the treatment of SMA but of course as a new mother it’s terrifying to know your child could suffer. My husband had to be screened and thank God he was not a carrier. So far our little one has passed every single test and marker and we are so thankful for that. There are a few more tests as I progress and we are praying for smooth sailing for the rest of this precious time.

It’s a Girl!

We had our chromosomal test where everything came back normal, thank God, and with that test we found out we are having a precious baby girl! I am so excited to buy her all the cute pink, pastel, princessy stuff! I’m such a girly girl myself and I wonder if she’ll be just like me haha.

Give Me All the Mommy (Especially Disney Mommy) Advice!

I feel so fortunate to know so many amazing moms in real life and on social media. Even being able to bond with my mom through all this has been amazing. Being a first time mom is crazy and I’m sure it’s gonna be scary and I won’t know what I’m doing most of the time so please, if you are reading this, and you’re a mom, give me all the advice you got to give! Also, what is the best stroller for Disneyland!? I need to know these things haha! What are the items I won’t be able to live without in the new born months? What was it like for you as a first time mom? This pregnant inquiring mind wants to know!

Also, if you are also expecting let me know! I’d love a mommy-to-be buddy!

Soon I’m going to do a post about my journey so far, such as how my first trimester went and what cravings and aversions I had haha! So if you’re interested, keep checking back!

Thanks so much for reading all this! I feel beyond blessed to be carrying this child, especially knowing the odds were against me and there are so many amazing women I know where their own journey to motherhood has not been easy. I pray for all of you out there who’s journey has not been smooth and I pray for you as you wait for your own little miracle 💖